#PLEASE I BEG OF YOU DONT DO THIS TO ME
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Alright, so I saw a bunch of other people doing it and I kinda wanted to do it to
10 notes: redraw ONE drawing (traditional)
20 notes: redraw THREE drawings (also traditional)
30 notes: redraw FIVE drawings (two traditional, three digital)
45 notes: redraw THREE drawings + a drawing of my OC (digital and main)
50 notes: redraw FIVE drawings + a drawing of an OC I haven't used in a while (digital)
70 notes (HOLY SHIT): redraw ONE drawing AND finish a WIP (digital and traditional (DONT DO IT))
85 notes: finish 2 WIPs + drawing of an unused OC (Traditional)
90 notes (WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO ME 😭😭😭): Finish ALL of my WIPs + FIVE redraws of VERY old art (digital)
At 120 notes I'll put all of my OCs (unused or not) into ONE drawing
Limit of 3 comments and 2 reblogs (yes I am making it unfair, fight me)
God what the hell am I doing
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Sigh
I can't believe I have to say this
If you know of anyone who's y'know "bad" or anything of the sort and happens to follow me... don't??? tell??? me??
Regardless of the circumstances and actions of the person, I say this with the utmost respect and fear: I don't want to get involved
What people who follow me or don't or have me blocked or muted or whatever do in their free and irl time is not my business
I know not to mess with english-speaking communities' personal affairs now. Like, no offense, but y'all are pretty fucking creepy when it comes to stuff like that, and that's why, again, I don't want to get involved
I have enough problems in the real world currently. Please understand that! 🙏
#im not trying to be mean or anything#im just gonna put it out there#im legit traumatized by the way english speakers and gringo cultured ppl handle these situations#im not even using that word lightly#getting the anon ask that spawned this post into existence made me want to puke and do not very nice things to myself#so please i beg you#dont tell me about it like im supposed to do anything to fix things#I also understand that many people believe larger accounts have a responsibility to get this sort of stuff out there#but im not strong enough for this kinda business#yall scare me way too fucking much atp#ughhh#aneh wont shut up
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not to terrorpost on main- but i'd like to say a sincere thank you to the temeraire fandom for introducing me to the terror.
i would also like to say FUCK you what the FUCK is up. what the FUCK is your problem. HUH? do you know what i dream about now? the terror. do you know how i spend my day? reading the terror. do you know how many times ive watched this edit? i couldnt even tell you (go fucking watch it RIGHT now this is a THREAT).
im in shambles, im a mess, im a different person than i was a fortnight ago and its YOUR FAULT 🫵
tuunbaq sketch <3
#this show has me sick to my stomach and I cant look away#temeraire enjoyers please watch the terror#terror enjoyers please read temeraire#please dont look too hard at the flag..#i really tried to make tuunbaq look angy but i just dont think im capable#used an actual art program and wow they have nice brushes#you will never see me use them again.#the terror#temeraire#go watch the terror 🔫#hold on hear me out#what if: tuunbaq.. but arctic dragon 🤔#DO YOU SEE MY VISION#PLEASE SOMEONE MAKE IT REAL IM BEGGING
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it doesnt need to be said but its genuinely so funny how at-the-hip charles and erik are in krakoa like they really had the green light- the OBLIGATION- to be as obnoxiously close to each other as possible and abused that right to the fullest extent
#xmen#xmen comic#krakoa#cherik#snap chats#until the divorce of course but until then its actually so funny#how you really couldnt go a page or two without one or the other and the other one was close behind#ice climber ass duo over here. the delightful children from down the lane kind of proximity what the fuck was their PROBLEM#i feel like if one of them was teleported the other would just materialize right next to them thats how close they were#fuuuck what was the issue where sabretooth and co are in like. Brain Prison or something#and victor imagines charles but everyones like 'wait its weird if its just him where's magneto'#ITS SO FUCKING FUNNY and i NEED to know what issue that was .... to add it to my collection ....#also killed me how in immoral x-men issue 1 charles was yappin bout erik bein gone#and- God Bless Who i forget i think it was hope- was just 'can you please shut up about your dead boyfriend im begging you'#moira stronger than me if i had to deal with thing 1 and thing 2 on a daily basis i woulda snapped sooner frankly#ig when you live ten times through The Most Bullshit ever youre numb to most things but still. my god theyre so obnoxious#sorry im cackling at the bit in HoX where charles is about to announce krakoa to the world and erik's putting his hand on his shoulder#and you justs see moira in the back like dawgggg right in front of her .... can you two get a room#GENUINELY no im GENUINELY surprised they dont share a bedroom#im not even talking sharing a bed im taking my shipper goggles off im actually baffled they dont sleep in the same building#obvi id be lyin if i said i didnt love it tho To Be Real .. genuinely love seein them work together as a team .. until they werent </3#in every timeline they WILL divorce each other that's just the rule. actual canon event it cannot be changed or stopped its integral#ok ramble over. but not really not in spirit cause ill never be over this ill die before i am#im gonna go eat now i think i think thats something i As A Human has to do at least once a day
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i lied and i messed around on a canvas instead spare me from your wrath......
#it would be soooo awesome if i didnt get stuck trying to start another ask#i really want to draw the next one but sometimes im just sitting there so instead i opted to just mess around with my favorite little brush#if i dont let him put his hair up into a cute little ponytail for whatever reason in ygm i WILL explode and melt away into a drain#bye!!!! goodbye!!!! see you!!! im dead exploded combusted into the goop the schlop the gloop the schlime#pleassse pleaaasssee let me OUTTTTTTTTTT PLEASE lte me do it please im begging#(nobody stopping me)#i love ourple canvas#i want to squeege him into a million bazillion trillion pieces#maybe he does that to paint or smth#waugh
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Impulsively shoving a guy's hand in your mouth after having the thought "oh just like when my little sister used to prick herself on a rose thorn" and then immediately being treated like a pet who ate something they shouldn't have? Wonderful. Thank you, Thane.
(also not pictured is Thane apparently trying to scrape your tongue with his hand BEFORE pouring the holy water down your throat because NO. BAD.)
#bewitching sinners#palmier baker#thane verashkova#accidentally ingesting vampire blood because of big brother impulses is wild#also the reason hes so alarmed is bc in that world you kinda soulbond to others and thats how you soulbond as a vampire#you drink each others blood and so hes flipping out because while he hasnt had your blood yet#hey your ex is going to absolutely kill me if we bond on accident and i dont think i wanna die like that!#which is VERY cool to know thank you thane im so glad your concern is actually less of being bound#but about being murdered thats really cool#also the fact thane is found in the library studying with arshem my beloved ex and is BRIBED TO LEARN RECIPES#by arshem with vials of mixed blood hes just CASUALLY CARRYING is like hey man#thank you for being group mum i love you for it#and then later on arshem actually is like oh thane you can drink my blood later since you havent fed for a while#and thane is super chipper about it like HECK YEAH THANKS !#hey boys youre adorable thank you for existing in this incredibly fucked up world#im in a choke hold with this otome im sorry#you ever try to be nice to a guy and think surely this will help him a little bit then you get background lore#and you realize youre probably making things A LOT WORSE FOR HIM by being nice#im going through it with my emotions as i learn about palmiers actions pre game swap so like#dude please i am BEGGING YOU palmier please have ONE redeeming quality in you at some point#i want to adopt one of the love interests as my son though and im obsessed with the fact he can speak fish#my son can speak to the fish and he gives me fish as a present bc i might need it later#and i do actually in fact need said fish later for another quest#thankyou my son i love you and i appreciate you youre amazing#gonna have to draw arshem at some point and everyone will immediately go yeah that makes sense
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oouuuuuuu I love my guyyyy ohhhhh I love himmmm I love drawing him 100 million times every single day
#me trying to calm down HAHAHAH#like ok steve. get your shirt off.#ALMAOALKGJLKGMGAGASKGSAGJLGKMGLK#sketches#steve#time and time again#ttawebcomic#also I dont like being TOO SERIOUS TOO MUCH IN A ROW...#back to posting normal style#art zone#sketch zone#we going sketch mode#doing this so that I can focus on work I've got a few things I have to pick between doing#enjoy#I love him so much#maybe later I'll make like a steve apreciation post if I remember#or something idfk#you could too#if you wanted#me literally like begging people to make fanart and fan posts about my comic#PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE#I'm talking to myself over here you gotta help me out
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i dont want to say this in a whiney way i mean this in a "trying to find comedy in a bummer situation" way but its kind of funny that from a social media perspective, objectively my sculpts/OOAKs, illustrative art, and plush work is strongly disliked. i have not been able to post any non-cosplay work without losing a good number of followers and they preform very poorly compared to cosplay stuff, like 900 vs 180K poorly. and again i dont want to be caught in social media games and the whole "performance as merit" thing (even though this does kind of bum me out ngl) but.....just from a comedy perspective the thought of someone being like "ug, you made a little guy? disgusting. I hate you. unfollowed." is....kind of bonkers ngl
#i appreciate the interactions they do get and i really REALLY dont want to come off as unappreciative#but this phenomenon is INSANE to witness and have to sit with#and also its like the holes audio of 'im tired of this grandpa' 'thats too damn bad' about people reacting to getting non-cosplay work#like bb girl cosplay is SO so horribly expensive compared to these other crafts#and please dear god in heaven let me do something that is uncoupled to my appearance and still have percived value and worth i beg of thee#so even if people dont want to see my non cosplay work#you gotta
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its time for scp required reading... TWO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
please for the love of god heed the fucking warnings im so serious . like as much as i want to keep the tone of this post jokey and funny you NEED to heed the warnings on these
ok with that out of the way. read about my blorbos boy
''incident 239-b clef-kondraki'' (general warning for violence and blood/gore) - this one fucks. thats all i have to say about it
''technical issues'' - this one's funny + im biased because i fucking love pat the tech guy
''routine psychological evaluations by doctor glass'' - again i have personal bias about this (<- simon glass enjoyer + host is a glass introj) + this ones funny + if you're more into the fanon versions of the foundation staff this is right up your alley
''tradition'' - halloween party fun :-)
''dr cimmerian hits reply all'' - this is exactly what it sounds like i don't now what to tell you
''stupid cupid / stupid cupid: stop picking on me!'' - my house my rules read about cimmerian and his boytoy
''hawaiian shirts'' - clef fucking Breaks. thats all i can say about this without exploding into viscera
''help me my (love for) my daughter was born too still'' (general warning for mentions of child death) - i have personal bias about this (<- #1 agatha rights enjoyer) but this tale is So Good in general and a super interesting look at how agatha perceives herself and her work/life balance
''so leave yourself alone.'' (warning for graphic depictions of vomit and attempted suicide) - REALLY really really good look at clef kind of dropping his cruel persona and iris' mental health struggles regarding the foundation
''yesterday'' (warning for violence and implied/reference suicide. kind of.) - :-( <- this is the only way i can express my emotions about this tale. anyway it's really good and an interesting way of showing clefs relationships with people
''an apple a day...'' - REALLY good look at how dr glass is as a person and how he acts with people + this entire tale fucks SEVERELY
''personal log of dr gears / personal log of █████ 'iceberg' ████'' - good example of how gears and iceberg both format their documents / how they speak + its vaguely gearsberg + this gives a look at how gears and iceberg met. read the gearsberg tale boy
''portraits of your father'' (warning for graphic alcoholism, suicide, survivors guilt, and blood/gore) - super good look at draven and his relationship with his father, and kondraki's alcoholism, and also talloran is there. also three cheers for dravoran
''life's cold'' - most normal day iceberg has at this fuckass foundation + this is a good look at how iceberg acts and thinks
''fond memories'' (warning for death and body horror) - draven proposes! Draven proposes.
''scp-3999'' (warning for bugs, paranoia, death, body horror, sexual assault/rape, unreality, self harm, and depictions of bodily mutilation) - unironically this one fucks me up so bad its so fucking good dude. go read about james talloran RIGHT NOW
''i stared into the face of everything and nothing and made it back alive'' - this one also fucks me up so bad like i dont even have anything to say. read about talloran and draven RIGHT NOW
''you are at the center of everything that happens to you'' - james talloran talks to himself. kind of.
''a suicide note'' (warning for mentions of rape, child murder, survivors guilt, and suicide) - interesting look at clefs thoughts on him and his work
''date night'' - objectum win! dr alto clef is objectoromantic AND objectosexual! <- that should tell you all you need to know about this one
''scp-4231 / montauk house'' (warnings for graphic depictions of sexual assault, rape, child abuse/neglect, murder, domestic violence, verbal/physical abuse and survivor's guilt) - absolutely gut-wrenching look at alto clef/francis wojciechoski and why he's so fucked up. uh genuinely do read the warnings on this one because when i say graphic i am not exaggerating. all of these things are explored in detail and are genuinely triggering so.
''okay, that's enough, let's get you home'' (warnings for some dubious make-out sessions, (mentioned) suicide, implications of rape/sexual assault, and vomit) - shameless moldhouse plug sorry not sorry. HIGHLY recommend reading this and it's other parts in their entirety because it genuinely drives me up the fucking wall it is So good. i will sing moldhouses praises until my throat goes out. read moldhouse Now
''duke 'till dawn'' - bpd king!!!!! anyway i dont have a lot of thoughts on this its just really good. also i didnt know dracula was an actual scp until i read this which is kind of funny to me
''rights' birthday party'' - my house my rules you're going to read about agatha rights whether you like it or not
''sex at a frigid temperature'' - again, my house my rules. read the depressing gearsberg tale, boy.
''7 things that new level 3 researchers should know'' - i dont have any thoughts on this i just think this one has really cool formatting
''home is where i want to be'' - no greater thoughts this is just really neat i think. also kiryu labs is in it and im biased as fuck
''gentle wings flutter quietly in the dark'' - read about zyn kiryu NOW
#[ren]#HHHHOLY FUCKKK. THIS TOOK ME SO LONG. AUUHGGH AUGHGHH AUUUGUHGHGH#please. please for the love of god reblog this im begging you#i did not put in all this goddamn work listing this shit for it to go unnoticed. coughing up blood#uhh. what else do i say.#honorable mentions to glass x diogenes 4ever! ; ship in a bottle ; and major tom which i left out. rest in pussy sweet princes#also if youre gonna ask ''wheres ___?'' the answer is probably either ''i dont like that one and therefore didnt include it'' or ''i have-#-literally never heard of that what the fuck are you talking about''#scp foundation#<- so i can find this later
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I want to be a vampire too: rant
played 2 routes of ikemen vampire so far. I love the game, but both times I have wished that there was an option to join them as a vampire at the end.
I don't understand why becoming a vampire is posed so negatively in the game, but whenever it comes up in the routes it's coded like it's a terrible option that MC doesn't want to do.
Well, au contraire! If I had a chance to become a sexy vampire in a mansion full of other sexy vampires I would take it ... especially if the person I was in love with was also a vampire. If both are vampires doesn't that mean more time you get to be together??
TLDR I want to become a vampire at the end of my romance and I haven't had my way yet,
#ikevamp spoilers#cybird please im begging you let me be a vampire too#can you tell i have main character syndrome#but fr fr I rly dont understand MC#like you could live a whole extra century or so with your mans#and you instead want to age way faster than him and leave him alone?? how does that make sense#it just rly gets on my nerves that MC doesn't want to be a vampire#because i do#it sounds so epic#ykwim ?#the routes i played are sebastian and leonardo#both so far we dont get to vamp out#ikevamp sebastian#ikemen vampire#ikevamp#ikevamp leonardo#ikevamp le comte#ikemen vampire mc#ikevamp isaac#ikevamp napoleon#ikemen vampire theo#cybird otome#ikemen vampire x reader#ikemen vampire review#ikevamp review
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Jimmy: looking for a thumbnail artist :D
Me: omg cant wait to see the result
It's Cherri again
#sorry I am such a hater#sorry cherri's work is evidently beautiful and they deserve success but I am so tired of seeing them on like every other mc youtube video#why is Doc the only goated CC with his fanart thumbnails Im so sad#Seeing different styles and artists like in the TCG for example is SO much fun. so exciting. so many opportunities for different artists#I just want to see more artists be given these opportunities do you know how many artists would kill for this man#for even a fraction of this#this isnt like. Cherri's “fault” or anything. Again they deserve success but ughhh#can CCs find other artists too please Im begging. Dont do this to me Jimmy not you too. Hire the person who did your channel avatar or sum#blabber
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okay here are some things i noticed and want to talk about!
stella has stockings and a little wand! possibly her scepter replacement? i don't Love the little wand but i do like that it's blue :)
i Hate the way the wings look,, they're so Hard and so unfairy to me. it does look like there's a gradient fade where it connects to the back? but the actual wings,,, eeeee it's a no for me. i do Like the design of flora's (stella's has yet to grow on me - we'll see), i just hate how hard they look. But i recognize that this is likely a budget and 3D limitation so,,, Fine
some background fairies!! so much more diversity it actually surprised me ajhgd they're def trying, i'll give them that
this background fairy who might be amaryl? or i'm seeing things but similar color palette ! it'd be fun if it was her!
adventure/mission suits!!! i actually like these they're really cute,, and bloom in a darker blue! and tec in dark purple! aisha in green! bloom bun!!
OKAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
specialists fan we have tentatively won - brandon fans your man might still look like a twink ajkgd it looks like a return to the same suits for them but their individual colors pop up more in these little glowy parts on their suits! also orange as a main color which i don't love but it could grow on me. their suits also look a lot more scifi and armor esque which isn't a surprise at all. also little backpacks now? kinda cute,, still nervous about riven's hair. it doesn't look good in this scene But tbf he is far away and moving very fast so Maybe Maybe Maybe we shall see idk but a return to shoulder length hair for sky!!! so far he looks the best imo but i'll wait to see all of them standing still before i cast Too much judgement aljhgd but the boys are here! at least three of them are akjdg
#flora is still too light so im gonna do a little edit on a dif post#grrrrr#STORMY LOOKS GREAT I LOVE HER#icy will have to grow on me actually#i dont Hate it but i dont Love it either... its my least fave design from the trix but idk!! maybe ill change my mind?#also yeah it looks like darcy's hair is shorter... i dont like that actually :( i loved her super long hair#stormy's hair looks great though im obsessed!!! stormy fans WE HAVE WON#okay rainbow... im excited to see more !#if there's enough time please make flora's skin darker :') im begging you :')#winx club
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So yeah remember what I said a couple of hours ago? Please forget it. Please.
WMMAP digital vol. 4! The beach extra is there, as well as the proto designs of some characters.
#i beg you to please dont repost these pictures#we always find out when people do even if we dont publicly say it btw lmao#who made me a princess#i suddenly became a princess#suddenly became a princess one day#wmmap#sbap#sbapod#wmmap full volume
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I'm convinced that the people saying Chuuya is never anyones first option have only ever seen the horrible destruction of characters and their relationships that bones has animated.
#you literally cannot convince me otherwise#yall are anime onlys#and while thats fine in and of itself#you cant just start arguments with people who are reading the actual source material about how significant a character is#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bungo stray dogs#dont get me wrong i like bones studio animations#but everyone knows bones destroys character relationships#ESPECIALLY SOUKOKUS RELATIONSHIP#bones has yall convinced dazai doesn't matter to the ada and that he and Chuuya hate eachother#please PLEASE P L E A S E im BEGGING you to read the manga and the light novels#youll have no idea how beautiful soukoku is until you do#soukoku#bsd discourse#skk#skk 15#bsd light novels#bsd manga#bones studio#bones ruined so much#they actively changed some scenes and they mixed up the timeline soooo much#meta#bsd meta
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people will think im ordinary until they say one (1) thing about tmnt and all of a sudden im explaining the entire lore starting from the 1990’s movie & why donatello is the best turtle i fear… T^T
tag limit fights me… i must yap… please listen… SOB </3
#tmnt yap in the taggies !!#would you believe me if i said my cat is named after donnie… teehee !! ^_^#i have been a tmnt lover since i was the ripe age of 6 years old SOBSOB#i used to write bf headcanons on wattpad way long ago… thats where my love for writing started i fear…#i probably have more tmnt merch than i do anime merch which is soso crazy to think about PHEW !!!#notebooks cups plushies legos shirts pajamas stickers tins action figs keychains name something and i have it… is that weird… SOB#im not joking when i say i know the entire lore and could explain everything from start to finish… FOR EACH AND EVERY REBOOT EVER…. wowza…#other than rottmnt because i’ve never been a fan of that reboot sigh…#the only reason donatello hamato isnt on my blorbie list is because i do not want to seem out of touch… he used to be there though !! :3#also i love raph too sigh#i fear donnie was my start to my love for nerdy men… raph was for the mean ones… cough cough akaashi and bakugo#tall lanky men… yeah hes a turtle… i know… let me speak… pls… i beg… T^T#tmnt 2012 will always be my star my light my beloved#i can recite every single episode </3 ALSO THE 2014 & 2017 MOVIES DONT GET ME STARTED i have them on dvd :3#i also have the 1990’s movies on dvd teehee theyre sososososoo good T^T my comfort franchise forever and always#i may always speak of anime but just know tmnt will always be the start of it all and my most beloved <3 its everything to me#also i was and still am an avid tmnt 2012 april oneil hater someone get her out of there i loathe her >:/#was never a supa big fan of leo im very sorry… idk who im sorry to… where are my tmnt fans… am i alone in this world… hello… tmnt fans…#omigosh im back after looking at my old wattpad story IM GIGGLING why was the writing kinda good… it was first person though sigh… goodness#i should create my own tmnt yap tag i fear… i will never shut up about it EVER SOBSOBSOB !! i even had a tmnt party when i was younger </3#donnie ( & mikey ) are so misunderstood UGH i could yap about the lore all day. donnie deserved more recognition he was always doing so muc#FOR ALL of his brothers and they never appreciated it… ill cry right now. donnie you will always be famous to me. april doesnt deserve you.#raph and his temper are so misunderstood too like please. always making him the bad guy HE JUST WANTS TO BE A GOOD BROTHER HES JUST AWKWARD#remembering when i had a crush on a guy names joseph in first grade and he liked tmnt too… joseph just know we were soulmates… i promise </#i used to go up to the tv and kiss the screen when donnie showed up. i was like 6 years old tho its okay… still sleep with my stuffie tho.#thank you to my yaya for buying me that when i had the flu hes still in perfect condition SOB donatello i love you so much UGH im crying#‘thats a mutant turtle ew !!’ HE IS VERY BEAUTIFUL AND LOVEABLE TO ME. YOU WOULDNT UNDERSTAND EVERYPONY </3 nia reference woah hi nia :3#whos in favor of tmnt. raise your hands up high so i can see them. im giggling. tmnt lovers rise we sha’ll prosper… WE RIDE AT DAWN 🦅🦅🦅#is this like totally crazy of me… has anyone read this far… if you have jusy know i love you. i cherish you. you are my everything <3#₍ᐢ..ᐢ₎ — lene’s latest gossip .ᐟ
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Slice of Life
Azris Week - Day Five: Slice of Life
~~~ In penance for the angst of day four, I give you day five, fluff extraordinaire, as a gift. This is just another part of my #giveerisababy2024 campaign - I'm looking at you, Azriel. As always, enjoy!! :D ~~~
Starlight
The room is stunning—the door opening straight into the open, wood floor and slipping seamlessly right into the double doors leading to a small, fenced balcony, looks out into the ocean. The glinting, silvery tossed waves crashing against the white limestone that carves the curve of the coastline. Eris has one hand holding Azriel’s bag, another, smaller one slung across his shoulders. His free hand is taken up by a much littler one; round, pudgy fingers and a deceptively tight grip.
Before it releases entirely.
“Ah!” Mina shouts, padding forward like a runaway cart with no brakes toward the open doors. “O-ten!”
Eris drops every bag—the front door still swung wide open as he hurries after her. “Mina—Mina wait for daddy, please.” He says, catching up to her quickly, but she pauses anyway, her small wings fluttering.
“O-ten,” she whispers, one hand pointing out the double doors and it’s clear, arched windows and out to the water below.
Eris crouches low, holding her lightly at her side. “Yes, I know. But we can’t go to the ocean there, little dove.” His thumb rubs soothing circles on her stomach, and with the other he snaps his fingers and the doors close with a click. He gazes at the side of her face as the sea breeze brushes gently through her dark curled hair, like it’s welcoming her. Saying hello.
Mina continues to watch the view outside, her attention fixed as a spell with her wide, dark eyes taking in everything it possibly can. One of her hands fisted at her mouth.
Eris watches her—astounded, in awe, completely, utterly in love for the second time in his life.
There’s a patch of sunlight shining on the rug in front of the doors, Mina toddles over to it and sits with a thump. Her back to the sunlight, wings shining golden, each spiderwebbing vein burnished blue and red lit up from the inside. They shudder gently, stretching out just a little to bask in the warmth.
Eris uses the time Mina spends on the soft rug with her toy lamb to pick up the bags he had dropped in the front door, and settle them in the main bedroom. Briefly, he’s taken in by the stretch of blue ocean, the green capped white cliffs that appear to cut through it. It has it’s own two doors that don’t have a balcony, more like a metal beam a foots-width and the same iron fencing.
“Mina,” he calls out, poking his head through the door and seeing her little face turn up at her name. “Come here, dove.”
She does so, standing up on wobbly knees Mina walks over with those stiff steps children take—like they haven’t quite learned what their knees are for.
Her little green dress flutters when Eris scoops her up, a happy squeal lifting from her upturned lips and he holds her close.
“Daddy, daddy, daddy.” She laughs into his neck.
Eris melts. “That’s me, darling.”
He moves in front of the bed, with it’s pristine white sheets and soft, down pillows. The heat of the day has seeped into the room, like bathing in liquid sunlight, and Eris pats himself on the back for thinking ahead making sure they all wear something light and breathable for the Summer Court.
Mina lays her head on his chest, the soft, dark curls of her hair brushing against his chin. Eris relents against the impulse to bury his nose in the top of her sun warmed head and inhale—Stars, she even smells like sunlight. Everything warm and precious in this world has blessed her and her little head. He hides a smitten smile in her hair and perks up when she says, “where?”
“Where, what?” He asks, following her gaze to the ocean far below them.
Her feet kick out slightly, like if she moves more the words will come to her quicker. “Where o’ten?” She begins to wiggle, fidgety, and Eris glances over his shoulder to the lovely, comfortable bed. He toes off his boots.
“Well,” he says as he lays down with her on his chest, grunting softly as she squirms away to sit up next to him. “I believe the ocean is right there.” He points out the open doors, the white linen curtains fluttering in the gentle breeze.
“Where’s go?” She wonders, her fingers fiddling with her stuffed lamb.
“Hm,” he hums, brow furrowing. “I think it goes out to Hybern, little dove. But it also goes around the whole of Prythian, way up to the Night Court.”
Mina brightens. “Nana!” She has her hands on Eris’s stomach and bounces along with the mattress.
Eris coasts a finger down the round slope of her cheek. “Mhm, nana’s there, but so is Zeb.”
“Beb.”
“Exactly.”
Eris hears the front door open, footsteps loud and tired walking in on the wooden floors. He tenses slightly, amber eyes flickering over to the door to the main bedroom until the faint scent of cedar greets him like a balm. He sinks back into the comforter with a sigh, watching Mina put the pieces together herself of who’s here.
Azriel stands in the doorway, a tired smile on his face. Mina shouts, loud and excited at the sight of him. Eris can’t help but agree with the sentiment, seeing Azriel with his dark, hazel eyes, lightening like sunrise when his gaze lands on the two of them.
The tension in his shoulders seem to melt away—whatever complication he was dealing with out front with the owner of the house seems to have dissipated by the time he’s next to the bed.
“Ada!” Her little hands grab at air, and then settle on his face when he leans down, palms flat on the bed.
Azriel’s features go molten, every harsh line of him softening along with the slump of his wings as he stares down at Mina. “Hello, little kokhavim.” He brushes their noses together gently, a fond form of greeting for parents and their children in Illyria—something he never had, never was given. He relishes in letting Mina clumsily bump their noses as she shakes her head around.
Eris laughs, eyes crinkled.
“Ada, ada—o-ten!” Mina says, wonder in her dark eyes when she points to the view out the doors.
“I see, I see it. We’ll go visit it soon, dove.”
Azriel toes off his own boots, sighing as he crawls over the plush quilts and comforters on the bed to flop down against the pillows. Mina stays in between them, guarded by the landmasses they make beside her. Her own little island, surrounded by the raging, protective sea.
Eris skates a hand along Azriel’s forearm, the sleeve of his shirt having been rolled up at some point. “Did you get everything with the owner settled?” He asks quietly, keen eyes watching how his lips press into a frown.
“I did, the ba—” he cuts off, glancing to Mina who seems entirely taken with a hung and framed painting on the wall above the bed.
“He wasn’t very nice. The paper work was ridiculous—I know for a fact we told him we had Mina with us—but it was just another add-on to his list of negatives. Don’t do this, don’t do that, keep the noise down, whatever.” He sighs heavily, elbow sinking into the mattress where he keeps his head up.
“Mm,” Eris hums, the back of his fingers brushing against the skin of his chest, the dip of his collarbone. “Doesn’t matter.”
“Yeah?” Azriel’s grin is crooked, taking Eris’s wandering hand and planting small, featherlight kisses on each knuckle.
“Yeah.”
It’s a little thing, looking at Azriel. The strong line of his nose and jaw, the curve of his smile, the one dimple in his cheek, and the glow of his eyes with their sooty lashes. Every part of him masterfully crafted, every part wholly Eris’s.
Azriel’s smile softens like he knows what Eris is thinking.
Mina squeals, and it breaks their attention.
“Sa-baa! Sa-baa, daddy, sa-baa!” She babbles, over and over, bouncing excitedly on her bottom, her wings following the movement.
Azriel glances at Eris, confusion written in the features of his face. Eris shrugs back.
“What do you mean, love? What’s sa-baa?” He asks softly, hand flat on her back below her wings to steady her.
Azriel looks around, trying to figure out what could have inspired this sudden burst of nonsense.
“Sa-baa, daddy!” Mina giggles, shaking her lamb toy around.
“Yes, I know, dove, but I don’t know what that means.” Eris says, trying to hold in his laugh. He never realized how funny children could be when he was growing up. Humor was all but crushed out of each of his siblings, including him, one careless, callous comment at a time.
It was only the presence of Azriel, and now their little starlight, Mina, who had brought it back like bouquets of flowers in spring.
Mina keeps repeating herself, a soothing chant of ‘sa-baa, sa-baa,’ as she keeps her fist in her mouth, drooling around it.
Azriel makes a noise in the back of his throat—a caught laugh. “You mean Sasha, kokhavim?”
“Sa-baa!” Mina screeches, flinging her lamb toy around.
Eris lays his head back on the pillows, chuckling softly. His gaze finds Azriel’s, almost upside-down at this point, and he points to the painting above the bed.
“There’s a black lamb.”
“Oh for the love—Sahsa, right, got it.”
“Ada, sa-baa.” Mina whispers having crawled over to him when he gestured at the art piece.
“I know, little one. But Sasha’s back at home, safe and sound.” He rubs their noses together gently.
From where he’s laying on his side, contentment like perfect sunlight sweeps over him. He would give anything to freeze this moment, imprint it on his mind like a picture pressed in glass—but he’s okay if it moves on.
He’s more than content to find Azriel’s hand in his when he lays down on his side, facing Eris, the other cradling Mina. In fact, there’s a large part of him that wants it to continue, to see where the rest of his life takes him. Wants to see Mina grow up and learn how to pronounce ‘Sasha’ in her strong, little voice. He wants to grow old with Azriel even though it will take practically their entire life before they start to see signs of mortal aging on each other. Most of all, he wants more of this. There’s no longer the embedded fear of every dawn, not of his life or his health or his sanity. Azriel had helped him dig through his veins and bones, helped him root out every poisonous, destructive belief that was burned into him. And after helped him heal with salves and bandages and soothing, warm touch.
When Mina falls asleep in the slowly sinking patch of sunlight, Azriel squeezes his hand.
“What’s on your mind, sweetheart?”
Eris’s lips quirk. “Who says I’m thinking?”
Azriel’s hand leaves Mina’s back for a second, tracing the curve of his mouth, the pad of his thumb landing on his bottom lip. “This does,” he says, “you’ve had that soft look on your face the whole time.”
Then he leaves it, lets the silence shroud them with it’s soft blanket of dusk. Mina’s soft, slightly raspy breaths heave and sigh like the ocean tide far below their open window.
Eris sighs. “Did you ever, even once in your life, think you could have this?” He says, and it comes out more vulnerable than he wanted, but Azriel is there anyway—his touch and gentle gaze all searching, all finding him, all cupping the tender aches and bringing them out under starlight.
“Never.” He whispers. “Not once, Eris. But there was a moment with you where I could see it. All of it.”
Eris inhales sharply—even now, the things Azriel says catch his breath. “Me too.” He says softly, barely louder than the crash of the ocean waves.
Azriel smiles, the soft, fond one he reserves specially for him—and now for the little girl asleep on her stomach, clutching her lamb tight, little wings twitching as she dreams. He lays his head down on the pillow, gaze still on Eris who keeps it lovingly.
“Thank the stars.” He says with a smile.
Eris’s eyes squint under the force of his grin. He laughs, breathless and—Ko-kaw’eloi bless him—happy.
“Thank the stars.”
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Key:
Kokhavim - 'Starlight'
Short, soft and sweet for today <3. I'm dead serious though I need them to have a baby like I need air to breathe. Anyway, hope you enjoyed, I loved writing this like I've loved writing every prompt. Even though sometimes it's a struggle to get into the vibe, it's still so so fun, I really can't thank @azrisweek enough for this event like it's brought me back to writing - enjoying writing. <3
#azris#azrisweek2024#azrisweek24day5#azriel x eris#they. make me so soft im losing it#i need them to have a baby. please please im begging p l e a s e#give eris a baby azriel do it dont be a coward i d a r e you.#like what you can have magically altered hips but eris cant have a baby?? lazy. thats entirely lazy#*sobs in fond*
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